I hate it when this happens...on the one hand, it's really nice because the house is quiet and I have a moment to myself.
Can't quit thinking about Mom and Dad. I want them here to see my babies, I want them here so I can tell them how much I would miss them if they were gone, and to apologize for the many bratty, stupid things I did growing up. This is what keeps me up at night. I hope I don't have to leave my kids until they turn 50.
Now, we've recently heard that Cris's cute Aunt Jan is having more complications in the cancer department than we ever would have wanted for her. I hate cancer. What's the point of it anyway? It never did anybody any good.
I'm also thinking about maxi dresses-isn't that the stupidest name? It sounds like feminine products that you wear-the thing is, they're really cool dresses. Maybe I just think so because they cover you completely-I mean, the tops are usually kind of all sexy and stuff, but nothing a cardigan can't fix. Anyway, I saw a really cute one online the other day, and since its keeping me up at night, I should probably go ahead and order it.
Also, I hope London's okay. We've switched the kids' rooms, and tonight she's had to sleep in an unfinished room that's only partly painted while all of her buddies sleep in the garage. Tomorrow night will be better for her, all her things will be in there, and it will look adorable. See, you'd think I'd be exhausted, I've been painting all day-but nooooo, here I am blogging all my random thoughts.
I really hope I can fit running into my schedule, or some kind of fitness, I look like a deflated balloon, I've got to do something about that.
I also need to get to the post office to mail my friend Lynette's present. I swear, her baby will be in college before I get that sucker out to her.
I think I have adult ADD.
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You don't have adult ADD, you just miss people you love and there's not one thing you can do about it. You want to see them, you yearn for both of them to be with you and your babies. I really think that they see you and your babies quite often. If God will allow them to watch mortals, then it is with you kids that they will be. Unfortunately, you can't see them, but the thing that kills me is that the grandkids can't be with them and learn to grow up copying their best qualities into their own lives.
This is why I feel the absolute need to make all of you kids albums with as many photos of your parents as possible. I want the grandkids to be able to pick up one album and get a good idea of how wonderful they both were.
I miss your dad so much. I would give anything to just have one more conversation with him. I yearn to see his face, hear his voice. I have an empty ache in my heart all of the time, but the most noticeable time is when I am not busy on a project. lt is really hard for me to go to sleep. I only fall asleep when I totally collapse from sheer exhaustion.
I just looked at the clock. I thought it was about 3:00 a.m. I am shocked to find out that I literally have been up all night organizing the decorations, pillows, table runners, etc. for every holiday in the laundry/storage room.
I love you Nickie. I am sorry they you hurt. I am also sorry to hear about Cris's Aunt Jan.
Good luck with the kids' rooms. I hope you got more rest than I did.
Sorry that I wrote so much, but my email sometimes doesn't get to you.
I'm sorry you can't sleep. I stay up worrying about things all the time, but I can't relate about your parents, but I know it would be so hard not to have them there. I hate cancer too. It's horrible. Did you get your Maxi dress? It reminds me of feminine products too!
You do not have ADD! You've got a lot on your mind and that is important stuff (especially the online shopping :) .. Sorry about your Mom & Dad.. I remember them being amazing! Love ya!
I frequently can't sleep because my mind is racing. I worry about my students and my baby and daycare and Nathan and Jan and the best is when I worry about my dad worrying, like that does any good!
I also want a maxi dress because they look like they could double as maternity wear.
Oh, Nick, don't you know that your parents do know your kids? Your mom probably spent extra time with them before they came down prepping them for the crazy, hilarious, wonderful woman that would be their mom. And now they remember all the times you must have had together before this life. And, who do you think your guardian angels are?
I miss your parents, too. I don't think there's a time when I pick up a crochet hook and think of your mom. I never got to thank her for it. I guess every blanket I make and give away is all the thanks I can do.
<3 rox.
All I can say girl is I hear ya. And who knows if they can hear us and they know our kids. It certainly doesn't do me any good when I am sitting here wishing I could talk to her about what to do with my son eh? I guess that is the less than positive approach.:) And I just love you to pieces. Pam and I were just talking about how funny and sweet you are. Today in fact.
It's all been said by people before me. There is never a good time to have your parents die. Write down everything you remember. Your memory will fade with time, I know you are so busy with your kiddies but make the time. You won't regret it.
I had so much to say, but it's all been said already. Having your mind full and heart full is hard, especially late at night.
I so had ADD as an adult. I love that you can't sleep. I know you you don't but do you remember in school how you would have sleepless nights and then when you sweet mom went to heaven - it became worse! Sorry nickie! I sure do love you and I love that my name is on your blog!
Post pics of London's new room- adorable - I bet! what room is she in. Can we come fly up and see you sometime?
Love you!
You are so awesome. You inspire me to do better following my parents counsel (even though I'm all grown up) and to love them more. You do such a wonderful job loving and teaching your children, just relying on the memories your parents gave to you!
maxi dresses....AWESOME. First of all, CUTE! Second) they are cool, as in not hot in the hot weather.
3) modest. I wear them with a shade shirt and a cardigan, or just a cute t-shirt over the top. YAY! Love it!
Also you can wear tube top dresses as long skirts, or short tube top dresses as knee length skirts. makes summer a little nicer I think!
I miss you!! You are the sweetest person and so fun. Your parents are both great, I can not imagine how much you must miss them! I love ya!!
Love you so much. Hang in there! I can't imagine doing what you have done, you are a strong woman. Did you ever get my invite?
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