Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Will you still need me, will you still feed me when I'm 64

Happy Birthday Dad!
He would have been 64 today, can you believe it?
Kermit's been having a really hard time lately with missing Grandpa, so we decided we should do something special for his birthday.
We talked about what we could do for him, to remember him. We decided cake was in order, but we wanted to do more than that, we wanted to try to give him something. Knowing full well, that would be impossible because he's in Heaven, even so, Kermit had a great idea, if only it could float.
So off to Zurcher's: The party store, we went. We got 5 balloons, one from each of us. Then we came home and attached notes to the balloons.


Then we went into the backyard and sang "Happy Birthday" and let our balloons go. And up they went.
And still up. Until we couldn't see them anymore, then we were sure that meant Grampa got them because we couldn't see them.
Doing this was harder for me than I thought it would be. We watched the balloons, and Ethan said he wished he could be tied to one of the balloons so he could float up and see Grampa. And I just sat there crying. Then London asked me if I missed Grampa, and I said yes I missed him. She sat there for a full 2 minutes or so (which is unheard of for London) and finally said, "He said he misses you too....he misses all of us."
WHAT!
I was floored by that, and began blubbering even more and hugged my London way too tight (she told me so).
I'm so glad we can be an eternal family. I miss my mom and dad, but it sure is nice to have my little babies here to comfort me when I feel like this.


On an interesting side-note....We went to walmart today (sorry arty) and found the Scottish Terrier LPS! That's like unheard of! The last time I even saw him for sale on the internet, you could only get him from a toy company in England and he was about 20 pounds! (that's English money).
It's amazing, today of all days....dad's birthday, and I find this little gem.
For those who don't know, we grew up with Scotty dogs, my parents loved them! They went through 3 in their lifetimes. They are cute stinkin' dogs. Anyway, thanks for listening.
Happy Birthday Dad.


18 comments:

TeamGornold said...

london is very sweet. i am sure that dad guided your hand and person to that littlest pet shop scottie.
today has been poopy for my, i sure do miss him.
love ya sis.

TeamGornold said...

by the way, your post made me cry...ho hum

Banham Luck! said...

What an incredible idea. It makes death a little less scary, still sad but a little more comfort knowing that they watch over us. They like balloons too!
Not only did it justify your needs, but think of the person that finds the note that says, "Thinking of you today!" they may walk a little taller that day!
You my friend are inspirational!!! Lots of Love!

Bonnie said...

I loved yours and E-man's idea of sending the balloons with the notes to Heaven. London's comment made me cry, too. However, they say the veil is not totally closed for little kids. Maybe Grandpa really did tell her that he misses you all.

I've been missing Randy all day, too. I wasn't creative like you were with your balloons, but I finally was able to finish and post my blog at about 9:30 tonight. I am not sure that people in heaven can read blogs, but it was all I could think of to do.

Knowing you have to live your life without someone you love is so painful . . .

Lynne's Somewhat Invented Life said...

A sun-stunner. Love it!

Lynne's Somewhat Invented Life said...

Oh, no, that comment was for someone else's blog.

I think you should do the balloon thing every year. It is the nicest tradition. Ask London to elaborate. I have no doubts, mind you. It is comforting and you might like to know details. When my kids said something like this I never questioned and wish I would have. My favorite photo is the one with the balloons far, far away. Whose balloon is in the lead?

Joey and Nettifer said...

I love you! I love your kids and could they be any more precious! I am glad you did a birthday party for your dad! Looks like it needs to be a tradition to help the kids always remember their daddy!
I can not believe what precious babies you have and what precious things they say!

Now on to more serious stuff :) Yeah for finding that LP on your dads bday! You are such a good LPS finder!

Bonnie said...

I forgot to congratulate you on your LPS Scottie dog find . . . and what a day to find it! I didn't eat cake, but I bought a Yogurt soft ice cream cone from Maverick gas station and I ate a piece of rhubarb pie in honor of the occasion.

Hillary said...

I cried a little bit too. It's me, Trisha's sister-in-law (Yogurt). I am totally stealing your baloon idea for my Husbands sister who died 2 years ago.

I'm glad you did something happy, and with cake too!

Tukuafu's said...

What a fantastic idea!! It's ok to blubber.. that is what us Mama's do BEST! I remember your scottie dogs :) LOVES to YOU!!

Camille said...

What a great story--thanks for sharing. And I loved what sweet little London had to say.

bebe said...

So neat! We will do a belated birthday balloon. The girls have been blowing up water balloons today (Hooray! Karli can do this by herself now...those little balloons turn ya purple and make your cheek muscles ache!) I however, still get the privledge of tying all of them off. Have you seen the awesome book by Jamie Lee Curtis called "Where Do Balloons Go?" She is such a happy author...if you don't know her books, they are so fun! It is a reflection on where balloons go and what they do when we loose them to the sky. I always do it as a writing activity with my classes! So cute! You should have them draw a picture of it their balloons and where they think they went. But you have to show them to me! Luva you, Bebe

Anonymous said...

Nikki,
the ballon story touched me deeply. I am quite inclined to feel that the veil is very thin and you are so lucky to have such a precious child. Sincerely, Charlene Newell (Bonnie's sister)












































































































































































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alli may said...

crying now. i am always sad when i think back to Nadine Gardner's funeral because I remember our senior year was full of your mom was sick, my mom had cancer, and so did Nadine. By Nadine's funeral I was the only one with my mom here still. I cried really hard that day. Sometimes a little cake and balloons is all we can do. I'm sorry that you were probably missing your dad on his birthday. I love you much! You amaze me.

Shortcake said...

Oh, Nickie! Sorry I asked you to watch Liddy that day, I had no idea. Thank you for being willing to watch her though, I really owe you one or two or a thousand. What a sweet way for you and your kids to remeber his birthday. I love you!

CHall said...

Ethan told me all about the balloons during his piano lesson. One of his songs was about balloons and he wanted to play it for me about five times. He is certain Grandpa got the notes. I am too. Hugs!

Anonymous said...

The balloons were an inspired and awsome idea. It brought tears to my eyes reading that blog. Made me think of my mom's birthday, which was yesterday. I love you and your family and am go glad I can keep up with your comings and goings on this blog! Give Kermit, Tinks and Smalls each a big hug for me.
Aunt Sharon

Mel said...

I'm sobbing! You are a great example to me! I want to be a good mom just like you!